As some of you probably know from being on my list for a few years, I have a bit of history with The Dollar.
In November of 2004, I had a grand net worth of exactly $7.03. As the Perfect Model for the Starving Artist for over 40 years, I was true to form - nothing saved, most of the time, nothing to spend, and certainly nothing to look forward to.
It was really, really, r-e-a-l-l-y hard. For way too long.
And of course, I resented people for not buying enough of my work; I was furious at people for not wanting what I had but asking for something that would match their couch; and enraged at my family for not helping me out when they *knew* how tough times were for me - especially in the '90s when I was so sick for so very long.
Thing is, the world does NOT owe me a thing. People don't buy my work - so? Get over it. Do something to let people know about it who *would* want and buy it. But I didn't - didn't know how, didn't want to, was scared to. Market my work? Uh-uh - only comMERcial people did that! And Godde Knows I'm not coMERcial! Uhhh - if I wanted to sell my work, how did I think I was going to do it without being in a marketplace of some sort? Without letting people know about it????
Thing is, if I painted a painting and someone wants it in blue, what's to stop that from being a pleasurable creative challenge, instead of an insult to my ego? But no, take it like it is and get out of my face if you don't like it, was my attitude. And I wondered why people didn't come back???
Thing is, the majority of times were always hard for me, and I know now that each person I asked for help was saying to himself, "If I give her money now, she's just a big, deep, bottomless hole into which I can pour everything I have and she'll *still* be having a *hard* time." They were right.
Why? Because I was still trying to do my life the way I thought it ought to be done, not the way that worked well.
I was ruled by beliefs that undermined every last thng I did. Which in particular? Here are a few examples: Money is hard to come by. My family only criticizes me. They (the mysterious "they") don't appreciate me. My work doesn't sell. I'll never have money.
There were many, many more, but I won't bore you.
THERE ARE SOME KEY WORDS HERE
Resentment: I was the walking, embodied, quintessential model of resentment. "They should..." was the beginning of every other sentence. No accountability - what? You mean I was creating this problem??? How dare you insinuate that! But it was true. My unconscious attitudes and beliefs wrecked my world.
Starving: I always felt as if I was literally starving. But could I do a job for a magazine who needed graphic design? Noooo. That'd be selling out! Huh? It'd be doing what I love - drawing and painting and getting paid to do it - isn't that what I wanted???
Times are always hard: do I have to say anything about this? If they are *always* hard, when do they get soft? Psst! Hello, Angela - never! Because I never let them! Always watch out for the word always (!). (And never: like, you never help me! You never.... = danger! danger!) The words always and nver really = I feel something I'm afraid to say.
When I discovered during the Avatar courses that I needed to DECIDE to change was when I started to change my life. It had never occured to me that I had to make a conscious decision first. So, I decided.
IT'S REALLY PRETTY SIMPLE IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT
Don't you decide to go to the store, to call someone, to buy that software, to praise your child? To change your life is as simple as that little decision. A few more steps, maybe, but it's still a decision.
It didn't happen all that fast, at first. Then I was asked to become Artist in Residence in a little town in New Zealand - which, I thought, was grand - until I was asked to teach Creative Writing and do a Life Coaching series besides the painting and drawing classes.
Suddenly, I felt like I was out of my league. Sure, I wanted things to change, but was I ready for things to change this much? Yes, I had already taught creative writing and coached, but the level I was expected to play at was higher than I'd experienced before. I asked for help from the Universe (god, whatever you want to call it yourself), and it came - in the form of EFT. I learned it and started using it with my students, and it was like being on a rocket ship - not just for them, but in my own personal life. To the max!
So how does that relate to my having no money to speak of for longer than anyone wants to think of? It relates because I have learned that creating my life is just like painting a painting, making a pot, designing a dance, composing music - I have to decide to make it, and then be able to see it, hear it, feel it, play it in my mind before it will pop out into manifest reality. The Secret is no secret. Creative people have used its precepts all their lives, not thinking the process is really any big deal.
Imagine, know it can be done and do it, accept what has been created.
Ask, believe/act, receive.
YOUR MAGNIFICENT DREAM?
So - those Big Dreams you have tucked away under your heart, that have shrunk into little dried up carcasses with only a tiny little spark of life left in them, no longer impatient to come out and enhance your life but just holding on, waiting until you happen to die - what if you could actually coax them on out and fill them up with impossibly colored rainbows and sweet heartsong and set them free? How would that feel?
All you need to do is decide.
Unwind the limiting factors.
And fly!
Now, I'd like to be there when you do it. I've had just a bit of experience facilitating growth like that, and it's outrageous fun - for you, for me, and anyone esle around.
I invite you to join me in the upcoming teleclasses I'm planning. There will be calls about money, about weight, about marketing, writing, speaking - you name it - but you know what? Under each and every call there is the same intent - I want to see those desiccated dreams, those half-birthed and almost fulfilled dreams - I want to see them and hear them and feel them and be there with you as you celebrate your victories!
How awesome it is to see someone Really Get It and Go For It! It makes me weep. It swells my heart up so much I can hardly breathe. It makes me weak in the knees and go still inside with the honor of having been privileged enough to come along, facilitate, guide. I know. Sounds pretty corny, doesn't it? But it's true - I'm a softie in there under all the I-Dare-You stuff. I used to be embarrassed about it, but not anymore.
WHEN WILL YOU DECIDE?
Have you already? Did you already decide that you wanted Something Better than what you have now? Fantastic! I salute you! And I dare you take more flights!
Have you not?
Then I dare you. I dare you buck the harness of whatever holds you back. Whether it is physical, mental, spiritual or emotional. We can handle it together, whatever it is.
What's calling you to go back inside your heart and find it and bring it to life?
Do you want better health? Financial fitness? Increased business, more clients, more speaking engagements? Better relationships - whether with people, spouses or money? Who wouldn't!
Anything you manifest - and I mean ANYTHING - uses the same process to get from concept-A to result-B. Having made material manifestation a priority for over 40 years, I have a bit of a handle on the process. And now that I am no longer poor-me-ing by any means at all, I can show you how to not only use that same process, but get rid of the ties that bind you down and keep you from your Heart's Dreams.
And I invite you to come this week to either or both classes this week - one on income, one on weight. Here they are:
Income: Increase Your Income.
Body: Create Optimal Health.
People who have been on my calls before know that I always (there's that word again!) have little surprises and Goodies besides the call and the no-cost audio for people on the call. I invite and welcome you to join us. See you then!
Decide. Then ask, what is my first step to make this happen? What is the next and next and next? Receive the results, check it out, and decide again. Repeat. Pretty easy.
Easier with a guide who sees your blind spots, helps you over them, and holds the space for your magnificent Dream. I so very much look forward to flying with you!
Income: Increase Your Income.
Body: Create Optimal Health.
aloha -
Angela Treat Lyon
p.s. The dates for Jan Wallen's three-class series for authors (and anyone else who needs marketing and publicity skill upgrades) has been moved up to April 2, 4 and 9. More about that soon.
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